Im going to end my work in the university in a couple of months. I dont know what to do after. I just know now that i need to be with my husband.

Well here goes...

Married life here i go!

I have been offered an extension with possibility of having an item in the university where i work. So i wait for my husband for 2 weeks to discuss it with him. I am personally torn. Things are going well carreer wise yet we both want to start our own family soon. Hmm, im constantly thinking of a good decision.

So here comes my husband. We both decide to wait a while and catch for good news on his side. So after a week (of not talking about it), THE CALL finally arrived. He has an upcoming company to start with. His idea has gotten the attention of some financially capable guy. Yehey and praises!!! now we are 60% sure that I wont be extending.

The 40% is still waggling.

Due to my persistence, we made a pros and cons list:

Pros:

1. In accepting the extension, we save a lot on housing, water and electricity. I am currently paying P300.00 on a 2 bedroom apartelle at the University's staff housing. Water is less than P50 and electricity not more than a 500 bucks. Rounding it off, we spend P1000 a month for basic utilities while young couples and families in the city probably spend about P8,000-20,000. Great savings!

2. In accepting the extension, I have the opportunity to dwaddle more on research and probably get my Phd on a scholarship basis. Plus, government work has so much benefits.

Cons:

1. We will still be having a long distance relationship. My husband in Manila and me here in Iloilo. Not so justified, huh? Such a short distance by air yet so far away. Our love affair before the wedding was long distance already, why should we continue doing so?

2. Expensive housing in Manila... need i explain more?

So, in conclusion we went back to Plan A. End my contract come May, live with him in Manila (even though we dont know where we will stay), and find other opportunities for me there.

It's sad and exciting. Sad because i will leave my students and I so want them to learn Epidemiology in a fun way. Exciting because this will be Leo and me living as a couple... maybe this will be the perfect time to make our own baby (who everyone is so excited to see)

Priorities do matter. I've learned the difference between single hood and married life. If I were single, i would have accepted the extension and lived a monks life here in the bundooks. Now that Im married, I have to wait for my husband's comments and insights.

No regrets. Im not limiting my opportunities. I want to strengthen my CV. Pursue further studies. Fulbright and WHO here I come!!! 

Hi Im back! I got married last December 9 of 2006. Yes, it was an answered prayer. The wedding took a year to prepare and gosh what an experience. Im now contemplating of being a wedding coordinator/ planner. Now that everythings finally over, the planning and coordinating wasn't so difficult after all... peanut butter and jelly sandwich thing. Hahaha! But during the time, i was at my wits end complaining and complaining non-stop. Leo and I were so blessed with Second Parents and family who helped us all the way.

The invitations were given as a gift by Manang Baby and Manong George. Simple elegant and classic. Manang and I had so much fun browsing the web for the "perfect" one.

The flowers were compliments of Tita Hazel and Tito Boy. Gorgeous arrangements! I was breathless when i was walking down the aisle of Molo Church.

The rings were compliments of Tita Susan and Tito Mars. Beautiful white gold rings. Simple and elegant against my engagement ring.

The giveaways for the sponsors were given by Dewey. Thanks dewey! angel ka talaga

My cousins grabe! I couldn't have pulled that kind of wedding without their support. I so love them.

Honeymoon was compliments of Tita Linda and Tito Tom at Tagaytay Sonya's Garden and then Baguio Elizabeth Hotel by Tito Boy and Tita Baby. Bliss! Absolute bliss!

Im posting pictures next time i log in. for now visit my friendster account...

Here i am refreshed and renewed. Could it be the love i feel? I am alive and existing because of so many love spells. I am in love with my family. with my work, and most of all with my one and only knight... Napoleon. Everyday, i am moved to pray to Jesus and Mama Mary and thank them for the graces coming my way....  I AM DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY! thank you thank you thank you!

someone has come knocking

and my will is strong

to open the door

let the sweet breeze touch my face

and the dust kiss my lips

many times i knelt and prayed

for my dreams to be reality

many times i question fate

and yet the heart knows

the heart feels

it sees

someone has come knocking

and i open the door

i see the knight in his majestic armour

weary from his battles

i long to see his eyes

and kiss away his wounded soul

let time stop or slowly tick away

let my prayers be answered

and the sweetness of the earth

envelop my knight and me.

I praise You, Lord, and thank You for the many opportunities for praising You and how it changes me and my attitudes. May Your praise always be on my lips. Help me to look at life through the lens of praise and see all Your many blessings each day.

Be with Manuel everyday. Keep him safe always. Thank You Lord for giving me this person who has taught me to be more prayerful.

After 5 weeks in the boondocks.... Civilization!  

After so many pent up tears.... WAAAAHH!

Miss my special someone.... meron na ba?

I hate being used. I hate the feeling of “prostituting” myself. I hate people who brag that they go through life like a breeze with the help of innocent “prostitutes” – me.

I hate being followed and being asked silly questions. I hate being asked why I am angry at them when they know well enough why – well at least, if they would care to be extra sensitive to other’s emotions.

I hate salesclerks who think they know better. I hate it when they say things that are supposed to be said when you’ve paid and gone.

I hate those who assume they can get what they want in the blink of an eye.

I hate demanding people who demand less from themselves

I hate emotional vampires. They give me nightmares and make me miss my siesta

I hate the paper white faced woman with thick blush-on in the elevator. I hope she squashes herself in between floors for just looking at me scream when the doors closed in on me. That insensitive clout!

Is it true?

that goldfish has an 8 second memory?

Oh Heart and Juday!

In your tiny octagon vessel

Up and down

Flipside and backside

Lips open and smack

Bubbling to the surface

Cute and Fat faced

Pretty and Slim faced

Perfect combination

to a weary day!

I am writhing in pain. The result of too long a talk during the cold windy nights last weekend and the travel back to the city.

I feel as if my body would be torn in half

Appendicitis? Ovarian Cyst? Mittelsmirchz? Cystolithiasis? Cystitis?

Gosh, the list goes on and on. Right lower quadrant pain... Hmm...

Its been a week. Antibiotics and pain relievers temporarily relieving my excruciating pain.

A visit to the doctor? No way jose!

Maybe after my 10th day of self-treatment.... (tanga!)